Hey, here’s a fun topic for this lovely Tuesday – depression and anxiety!
I have several theories as to why, but I think it’s safe to say that a large majority of Millennials have suffered with depression and anxiety in their lives. With the amount of pressure and expectations social media demands from us, it’s no wonder we’re constantly worrying about how our lives are portrayed.
I’ve always been pretty chill and laid back. I’ve never really cared to an insane level what people think of me. I’ve had a pretty solid life so far.
Things from the outside seemed perfect in my life, and internally, I always felt like it was.
It wasn’t until almost two years ago, I developed these intense panic attacks. I can’t even remember the first time it happened.
I just remember that my panic attacks started by happening periodically and quickly ended up happening every. single. day.
Can you imagine? It got to such a point, where I would expect them to come, probably making it worse for me.
The worst part is that I never knew what caused it. I would be out with friends, having an awesome time, and it would hit me.
My surroundings would get quiet, almost muted.
My vision would start closing in on me, like entering a dark tunnel.
Then, everything would get really, really loud.
And shortly after, I’d burst into tears and panic, having to leave the room as quickly as possible. I’d then enter into a dark, depressive state. The two would intertwine, leaving me in a mist of panic, sadness, depression and shame for having these feelings in the first place.
‘What is wrong with me?’ I’d think to myself.